As an adult the same patterns were playing out, with Nola feeling she was second best and not allowed to achieve more or faster than her sister, whether in a career, buying a home, finding a partner or having a baby. Whenever things seemed to be going right, particularly financially, Nola would make a choice which sent her spirally down again. Her, potentially unfounded, jealousy was driving a wedge into her relationship, pushing her partner away with distrust, accusations and spying.